I Quit!

Some of you know I've been having some medical issues for the past month. Almost exactly a month to the date today.  For those of you who don't know.. here's the short version...

I was in Denver, started having vision issues. My far vision was horrible and I could not see the presentations that were going on.  I did not have any issues before this...  so a pretty sudden onset.  Upon return home, I had my vision checked, and my prescription had changed by a whole point on each eye since January 1st.  With further research, we found that my blood glucose levels were severely elevated- also a sudden change from when I had had blood work done just a couple weeks before at the end of April.  What do I mean by 'severely elevated'? consistently in the 300-400+ range.  Normal is under 100.   So...begin a series of doctor visits and medications and glucose levels that are not moving. The vision issues most likely caused from the glucose levels. I had the lenses in my glasses adjusted and got new contacts  so I could actually see at the new levels.

After lots of struggling and impatience, I had finally relinquished myself to the fact that God has me here for a reason, and I should quit trying to be Him... and whatever would come He and I would deal with and I should just quit- quit worrying, quit planning the next step, quit wondering why... etc.

Last night I went to bed... I could not even read my alarm clock on the nightstand next to me- which was pretty constant since this began. This morning, I woke up and it was crystal clear.  I hopped out of bed, grabbed my old glasses... and sure enough  I can see at my old levels again!  And all I can say is Praise the Lord! Nothing has changed on my sugar levels.. :)  Its still the same.  But my vision is restored to its previous level. I could offer lots of speculation as to why..but no, I quit.  I want to rest in giving God the glory for this..and not take that away from Him by thinking its something I did or a change I made, etc. And I wanted to share this with you- and remind you that God does still care for us in trials, He does still provide what we need when we need it, and He can do anything. Anything.